It feels better biting down

I can’t describe this. I’m forced to take a pill by my capture. It takes over my mind. Putting up barriers. Denying me access to the very part that let’s me plan. I’m stuck in an endless ball Pitt. Floating happily along. I can use the balls as weapons. But why would I? I can hold my breath and allow myself to sink in to the ball; go into sleath mode. But I have no will to do so. I’m so cheerful. Happily doing nothing. Every time I float need the outer ring of the Pitt a gentle breeze pushing me back in.
Later that night the pill wears off. By then I’m useless. Physically drained. The very though of trying to leave doesn’t even flash anymore. What is happening to me. I don’t know how I’m going to get out of this one. I’m missing myself. The warrior is sleeping and I can’t wake her. I’m stuck. Floating. But for right now. That’s ok.

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About moderndaigoddess

out on my own, these are my words about how crazy life can get
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